So sleeeepy...soooo whiny...so full of self-pity

am sick and tired of the week flying by at warp-speed, feeling completely depleted of energy and motivation...i blink and it is friday...i blink and i am in my mid 30s and getting closer to the downhill slide...i swear i feel like a haggard, soccer mom (damn, those lee riders can be binding)! amongst the day job of navigating teenage angst (which i really do enjoy), my evening/weekend gig, which entails keeping our heads above water as we launch our business (which essentially consists of housefrau...secretary...salesperson...production lineperson...personal assistant),and playing weekend step-parent, i feel insanely overwhelmed and O-L-D...can't even enjoy the occassional cocktail as it now knocks me flat on my ass!...lately i have become insanely forgetful and incredibly clutsy(have just sprained my ankle for the second time in 6 weeks...covered with bruises from walking into things left and right...literally...)... mikey keeps telling me this will all pay-off in the end and i know/hope it will, but there are so many days lately where i just miss being incredibly selfish and self-absorbed (i guess the self-absorbed piece could be addressed through the greatest of all exercises in narcissism...having a blog...but that is not enough, damnit!)...i so took for granted those days of doing whatever the hell i wanted, whenever i wanted...immature, i know, but at least i felt like i had some control over my destiny(and yes, i know i still do, but this is my blog and i want to bitch)and i didn't feel so damn old...i am not ready to be middle-aged or to feel like it...calgon...take me away...or at least someone hook-up an IV of g&ts to me, lay me on a bed and just play a continuous music loop of '80s alternative!